mm. life goes on. staff party.. what an interesting event. i once again remember why i stopped going to these events. too much drinking.. wayyyy too much drama. only if james comes with me will i ever attend another staff party. they were designed for the single people... im not single, and soo happy that im taken!
beyond that, im glad i have a friend like johnny d, who saves me from awkward moments and then takes me out for breakfast the next day to let me unwind from the nights events.
then i look to the lord and realize how amazing he is. my one worry thats always on my mind, is that james is going to leave me.. its a stupid fear that i need to deal with, but god smiled at me and gave me a little reminder of the love he has for me.
and i looked back and realized.. trust.. is hard for me, but if im ever going to trust james fully, i need to tell him everything about me. everything. i need this relationship to go farther than any other.. and telling people my past.. i dont do that. so the next step in our life.. is knowing everything there is to know about eachother=trust.
im excited. nervous but excited.