the truth will set you free

i think im messed up.
i told my mom the truth.. im unemployed, broke and really unsure of my future.
i was crying because she was yelling and i was super tired and hungover.
then she tried to comfort me in the way that mothers should but all i wanted to do was shove her away.. she has never been there in my life.. never earned that trust of letting someone hold you while you are helpless.. am i a terrible person? i hide my feelings pretty well.. always have. i stand by my decision that emotions are for the weak.. but when mind power cant stop me from crying.. there are only two people i would ever want by my side... my two best friends... one i grew up with, and the other who's family raised me. i dont feel guilty and maybe i should for feeling that my mom is taking up the mom card a little late in life.. i dont know.
but i like that im not lying to her any more about my living situation.. lying hurts me just as much as it hurts her.. things like that i dont really want to hide from her... other things.. well its reserved for the best friends circle.