inner peace

its amazing. knowing my future actually has given me peace. i hate thinking about my future.. alot. i like the unknown, but realizing that i am leaving elkridge.. im excited to be with the people i love again. to feel at home.. its exciting. i've had good and moments and bad times here, life at its best. but i feel alone. trying to make this place home is hard when i dont have a lot in common with anyone, and everyone else seems to have so much in common. i will come for a visit one day again, because this place is beautiful, but right now, im ready to leave this place at the end of the summer. i need stability and trust in my life. i have that at home. the friends here are the most bi polar people i have ever met. im excited to live with my sister in waterloo, a beautiful and peaceful city, to go on coffee dates and sit in a quiet pub listening to live music. i miss star bucks. lol.
its a beautiful day. perfect fall weather. cloudy and sunny, and a cold wind that refreshes my unwashed face. my tea refreshing and warm, the rays of sun blinking through the steam coming from my cup. its a perfect morning. now only if the afternoon continues in this way.