so i had a little downer time a couple days ago. without wanting to sound conceited or something, all the guys here think im beautiful, and its been really hard for me to know how to handle it. i tried to ignore it, but then they went from saying it among themselves to telling me, all the time and i just smile but its really hard for me to have all that attention.. i dont really like it, yet its a confidence booster too. anyways, rumours here run as fast as highschool girls and i heard that someone was saying something about how i am sleeping around. and it really hurt. it got me pissed off, then upset and then the next morning, after waking up still upset about it, i got an email that just made me realize that, the rumour has no truth in it, so why should it matter what these people are saying. they are not my friends. awesome enough there was one girl in the circle where that person said it, that stuck up for me. im glad to know there are some people here who have morals and arent still in their highschool era. but as the summer goes on i realize that more and more rumours will start and fall through and try and hurt me, but it fades and i hope i can be there when someone tries to start one just to shut it down as fast as it came out.
as for right now, im sitting in the silence.. no music is what i mean, and no friends beside me. im listening to the wind in the trees outside my window. its so beautiful up here. i understand why people make fun of saskatchewan, but i can understand why no one would leave this place, to convince others of its beauty.