sex and the city addiction

so after three days of coming home from school, watching sex and the city and then starting homework at an insanely awful hour, seems to resonate a single thought. to boyfriend or not to boyfriend? haha, yes, I'm trying to be carrie bradshaw for a post. but seriously being in a very long phase of no commitment just fun, no pain just easy attention takes its toll. Romance is something that i love, i love it in movies, i love it books, i love it music! i see it everything, i may hate PDA, but in every situation i happen to be in, i find myself thinking of romantic atmospheres. I'm not necessarily picturing a man in my romantic scene but i do view everything (at times) in a romantic light. i wonder if i'm the only one? does every girls romantic scenes involve a guy? is it weird that mine dont? at the beginning of Pride and Prejudice, Elizabeth is walking in a field reading a book as the sunrises. to me that would be the most romantic setting and i cannot wait to experience it. Sure romance with a guy is just if not more beautiful, but thinking that that's all there is in a romantic life? Being in the big city i thought i would get tired of it and sure, i love to escape to my sister's country farm house every once in a while, but the city this morning walking to school was so beautiful. the crisp air, chilling wind and the sun slowly coming up to the left of me, its my favourite walk of the day. My best view of the city used to be coming into it on the highway at sunset. the sun reflecting in the buildings is so beautiful, but sunrise in the middle of down town Toronto; staring up at the sky framed by buildings is surprisingly freeing. Dundas Square when it's snowing ... you couldn't pick a more breath taking spot for a single dreamer like me. I love the country, anyone could tell you that. and i knew i would also love the city, I may get tired of it and take a break in the country, which luckily isn't too much of an obstacle for me, but the city has a charm that the country cant grasp.
Ever feeling alone and in need of company of a guy, is usually the time i decide to go out of the city and a good dose of fresh air, trees and land.. always cures me. The end scene of Pride and Prejudice is also my fantasy. that kind of romance is so pure that i want to believe that one day it will happen to me, but the reality that every other person in this world is trudging through my young mind, is that, that is a movie, and only a movie. true romance does not exist, and eventually you either marry someone that makes you laugh, or you dont marry at all and you join the prestigious elites that roam most of the city, and believe that life is what it is, romance is not life, its words that can't support.
Romance: a definition is required...