in love

alright, so i kno so many people have told me to listen to jason miraz.. bu i never had.. until this morning.. and i'm in love! its like a mix of jack johnson and john mayor! with a little micheal buble.. OMG! amazing!

so its 9 20. i've had my cup of coffee, cleaned the kitchen, organized my room, continued doing my laundry from last night, and yet... i'm just sitting here. i've been sitting here for 20min.
i woke up at 6 per usual, stared at the picture of my sister and I that i have on the wall (didnt think about anything just stared) then got up made coffee, watched some music vidoes on the tv while i stretched and did a little pilates. then drank my coffee, killed a humungus (if anyone knows how to spell that please do share!) spider, cleaned the guts of the centipede i killed yesterday on the counter (i'm telling you, its just creatures with more than four legs that creep me out. ps, i realized i have a huge fear of lobsters). i dont know but i wish i just had motivation to do something! anything.. i need to go out and be alive in the world. i feel like i have closed myself in. i havent been exploring my new area, i've been down the street (walking) once! i havent gone grocery shopping since last week sunday! two weeks basically. how long have i been here for? i dont even remember! time has no record for me anymore. the only time i seem to care about concerns money and food that i'm cooking for a chef. is this wat my life is going to be for the rest of my life? i need a hobby.. but why does it seem that all hobbies cost money?! I HATE MONEY! but i need it..

alright, so that was all the thoughts going through my mind this morning that i wouldnt actually let myself listen too.

until i post again.