the world i live in

i am all about not seeing what is infront of me. i like to look beyond what is walking by me and look into the air and see the birds, the reflection of trees in the tall glass buildings and the wind sweeping up the beautiful people hustling by. i know that there are homeless, abused and abusers on every corner, and i feel for them. i loved volunteering to help them. but my world. my own personal space.. its not reality. its reality on steroids- making some things larger then they should be and some smaller than they ought to be. i always say i dont judge. i judge, and worst of all i judge at face value and sometimes don't even give that person a chance. men, in my life... they dont really even get a chance. i have never really given them a chance to prove themselves different. at face value, i see guys as asses, or in some cases pieces of ass. i know its vulgar and sooo not right, but i do. i watch shows on tv where men cheat, sleep around and very few are steady in any relationship. then i look at my life and the men i know, cheat, sleep around and are not very steady in relationships. i started watching MAD MEN which is a show i usually enjoy, but tonight.. no.. not tonight. i am sick of seeing men make stupid decisions based souly on their carrot and potatoes (that would be my cooking ref. today)
it never bothered me before.. or not enough to make me stop watching tv. lol
i am lucky to see some of the most beautiful women grow up, make decisions good or bad, learn from them and become the most elegantly gentile and gorgeous women. the one thing that ruins us all, is unfaithfulness in the one we love most. why is it that women can give they're whole selves and men still dont get it?

wow.. ok.. my vent is over. i hate men. lol they make things so much worse yet so much better.