the first day of the real world

i start my job today!! and even though i've worked there before, i'm nervous as hell! its a weird feeling to make your own money and to support yourself. i'm not sure i want too, but i know i have to. i'm excited for this new step in my life.. haha to have money... but soo scared!

i'm working in a kitchen, the behind the scenes of the beautiful candle light dinners. and at first i thought i was going to miss seeing the beautiful exterior of the restaurant but i realized that i love the people in the back. they're funny. they're hard working.. a little.. ok a lot perverted.. but its fun.

well, i was also really touched to see that others read my blog. i realize i dont really write as much anymore.. the hardships of having cable for the first time.. lol. but i miss these small insights into people i love.
i've been thinking alot about my family lately. how angry i was that i didnt know the truth about my family. soo much i didnt even kno!
hm.. well my thoughts are scattered right now, and i need to get ready for work.
i will write again.. soon