the wind in the trees and birds in the sky

wow.. its my week off but this is my first day of just doing... not nothing.. but not something.
i'm in waterloo visiting my sister and the weather has been gorgeous! i woke up this morning and could hear birds chirping and sunshine was filling the room so brightly. its been a long time since i've experienced that. i miss it. for sure i miss it. i love toronto to no end but my place is hiding the world from my senses.

the thing about big cities is that you dont have time to enjoy your surroundings. even when you go out for dinner.. your rushed. i'm remembering that in the beginning of the year i blogged that i was sitting in downtown business center of toronto watching the world shuffle by and i noticed a bird. totally unaware of the crazy city lives rushing from job to job, coffee to street car and grocery store to bed. life is work. i hated when i realized this. i'm a dreamer and realizing that my days of sitting outside listening to worlds beautiful sounds... its over. i want to cry.

but now i'm realizing its not over. i just need to put myself in a situation where i can enjoy them. where i can just sit.. not worrying about money, not worrying about being late for work or school... not worrying.. just sitting.

i do go out and have fun with friends.. but its not the same. i need my escape.. my escape from my crazy life. i need to find my center peace.. haha ya i need yoga (that should so be a commercial!)

i'm sitting in tim hortons on UW campus and looking out the window i can see trees, i can see waters, i see grass and paths. i woke up stressed that i wasnt stressed. i'm rediiscovering wat its like to not be stressed. i look at my dad and see how stressed he always is.. i didnt get it, why doesnt he just take a break.. i just realized that once you work this hard (and its only been two weeks for me) we dont understand or are uncapable of not being stressed.. we get stressed about that fact we're not stressed. its a backward world this career thing.

just remember Gods blessings.. experience the freedom of the wind in the trees and the birds in the sky.