moving on

so i'm sitting waiting for the time to move in to my new place.. listening to music i dont know and feeling excited yet depressed at the same time. something about moving on to a new place, new situation.. its stressful, and somewhat overwhelming. i remember my first move.. i sat surrounded by all my stuff and i couldnt move. it was too weird. i didnt want to leave but i really really wanted to leave. a new chapter is beginning in my life and i'm scared. my best friend is going to romania for two weeks and she's so scared and i am super excited for her but its all so scary moving on, into different comfort zones. growing up.. haha i hate it! and yet i'm so exited. why does everything inside me go against eachother?

well i have to eat and get ready to move.. wish me luck!

ahhh

AAAAHHHHHH

home for a little while

so I'm back in Ancaster... it's very weird.. even as i was driving here i felt like i was being pushed into a small space- i never thought that my childhood place would one day make me feel claustrophobic. From alot of students i've heard that they miss the feeling of having a home, that every place they move into is just another place.. its not home to them. Is feeling at home really that important? I've only lived one year out of my mothers place but i have never felt like i needed that feeling.. or maybe it is that i made my apartment so comfortable that it was like home? a center place in a persons life. is it really that important to stay in one place? does everyone deep inside them look for a place that they feel the most comfortable.. or maybe enjoy the most.. what is home? just a place that you feel comfortable in? if thats the case then that should be where you're living at that time. maybe not feeling at home is just the persons unwillingness to let go of their childhood home and move on to make their own.

the window is open

so its almost ten, and my window is still open.
there's a cool breeze entering my room, but the noise of outside distractions, and the crisp fresh air in my room begs for a camp fire, stars and friends sitting around talking and laughing, sharing our deep thoughts and sharing the unimportant things that make a friendship complete.
i'm staying in toronto for the summer, but i kno that many weekends will be spent away from the city and in nature.

i'm remembering spending a cold weekend with my friend amy up at her cottage. it was on the lake and we had the best times looking at the water, listening to the animal calls, staring at the stars, wondering deeply into the flames of the camp fire and climbing to the highest peek in on the lake shore.

something about height, about silence, about wind.

i'm glad the winter is over, and spring is coming home. the silence of wind.. there is none like it. because with all the trees rustling, the waves rushing and whistling of natures return call.. life itself is silent.

what you know about

my new favourite song!:

What'cha you about freedom?
what'cha know about me?
have you seen the sunrise?
i heard it can set you free.

sometimes your life can crumble
sometimes your life might make you stumble
but you can't drown in your sorrow
cuz you might be found tomorrow.

what'cha know about love?
you said our love would be
you said you were my girl friend
some girl you turned out to be.

sometimes your life can crumble
sometimes your life might make you stumble
but you can't drown in your sorrow
cuz you might be found tomorrow

what'cha know about freedom?
what'cha know about me?
have you seen the sunrise?
i heard it can set you free.

sometimes your life can crumble
sometimes you life can make you stumble
but you can't drown in your sorrow
cuz you might be found, you might be found tomorrow

Donovan Frankenreiter

a smile for the day

at 2 this morning my phone went off, and without reading it i knew it was from my sister.
this morning when i did read it, i smiled so big! my sister is safe, and happy and on her way to Peru! with an uncomfortable layover in the airport they're off again at 8 to finish the traveling there part. GOD BLESS

sad

MY SISTERS GONE! i miss her already and its only been 5 hours since she took off!