6 months

im sitting hear, exhausted. listening to Alexi Murdoch. texting my lover. praying thankyou's to my savior that ive been committed to him for 6 months. thats pretty much unbelievable. and after my freak out at work, my crazy rushed prayer time with god, asking for calmness, thanking him and trying to organize my thoughts.. well i realized ive never been happier, more at home and trusting with another person. this person that i thought could never exist.. well he does and he loves me.. its just the weirdest thing for me to grasp. im not a man hater.. i just dont have faith in... well any of them. but im being healed and im so happy i feel like im going crazy. we share our faith, our likes... well most of them, and dislikes.. well most of them lol. im just so excited. i feel so blessed. so lucky.

away we go

amazing movie. its artsy, small film, and perfect. its a movie about finding your home.. your roots, but also finding it with the person you love, and person being created in her.
made me laugh.. makes me want to go for a walk and just think about my life, makes me want to cry, and it makes me smile from deep in my heart.

a good day.

yesterday.. started out rough. i woke up 15 minutes before i started work... at 6am. didnt wash my face, or brush my teeth, or do anything with my bed head. work was fine, drank alot of coffee and before i knew it, it was 1pm and i got to leave! so my most amazing boyfriend picked me up and we went "shopping" or basically window shopping. it was probably one of my bestest afternoons. i was tired, gross and in my chef clothes, but mostly i got to spend all afternoon just him and me. it was perfect.

just tired

so yesterday i worked my first twelve hour shift at wild craft. i fell asleep at 11 last night.. full out pass out. waking up when my sister offered me a free ride to my place.. and i turned it down and continued to be numb to the world.
waking up i was still tired in my mind, but my body was already stretching and getting ready to be walked. so i went made myself a tea.. and now im wrapped in a blanket writing on my blog.

goals today:
read captivating.
re read chapter two of falling for god.
at some point i need to shower, and might need to go to my own house.

excitment for the day:
my lover might come visit me tonight!!! yea!