I want the truth!
you cant handle the truth!

may be true, but i would still appreciate not have a mental break down everytime i see my parents and have to be re-introduced to their truths about eachother... to realize that all my childhood was a lie. tell me the truth i may have hated you then when you did.. but isnt that better than me hating you now, after you didnt...

so many questions, so many lies.. when a liar tells you the truth.. can you believe him?
no trust.

pretty awesome feeling im having right now.
with so many goals, so much commitment.. and actually starting to follow through.. its pretty awesome! starting a series on prayer.. what better way to start? memorizing verses.. getting over an addiction, putting priorities first.. organizing financing's... organizing my life!.. its so much but i've never been more excited and ready for this. its an awesome time! a beautiful time. how awesome is god??

a sick day.. feeling like im always an inconvience to the people around me... feeling like i need to punish myself for something i did.. i have no idea what i did.. but im punishing myself for it anyways.
im a little jealous.. a little worried.. that you have a need for your parents approval... for them to know how work was.. is more important than for me to know how your day at work was... im definitely jealous.