in the hands of God, we will fall, rest for the restless and the weary. hope for the sinner.
in the hands of God, we stand tall. hands of the mighty to deliver, giving us freedom.
your amazing.

its a new year tomorrow! exhausted from 2009, im looking forward to the new year, a fresh start, a new boost of hope for a better life.
prayers of guidance.
prayers of peace and excitement.
prayers of a fire placed in my heart that will get me off my butt to do what i love..
help others.. less fortunate, in need of ears to listen, hands to feed.
i want to be useful.

i have a long list of new year resolutions. and if even one of them is accomplished i know i will be a much happier person.

its a new year!!! and i know how amazing God is, i made it to 2010!!

i dont know what to do. i dont know if we can ever be the same. i dont know if we can get passed this. i dont know if you.. can forgive me.
you say you forgive me.. but your actions behind your words only last so long.
and your actions.. seem to be there for people to see.. not for me to feel.

its the beginning of another stressful week. not only with working 6 days a week... but its the second time i saw you...and we never seem to say goodbye with our hearts, or our minds. i leave in a daze of sadness, regret and wishfullness.
i leave in fear that its the last time. that this.. is too much to handle. too much to forgive.
i dont know what to say to make it better... and i dont know how to talk to you when your angry.

im happy we had the talk that we did... but with the hurt that we both feel, im wishing i never had to talk. life would be easier if my words evapourated before they hit your ears. but it wouldnt work, it doesnt happen like that.

i took communion with you today. i strongly believe in not particapating unless my mind and heart and soul are clear. do you feel the same? forgiveness is not a one time... forgive and forget moment.. how easy would life be if it was?? but i asked for forgiveness... i forgave you... i felt at peace with us..

when will you feel at peace with us? will you ever feel at peace?
this worries me.